Part 2

Picking up where I left off...

August 8, 2008 started like any other day. I get on in the afternoon to check my YouTube page and notice that I have about 30 more comments than I normally do in any given day...all on the same two videos, the Catholic Charm video and the What's The Matter Baby video. I start reading the comments and it's all criticism. I got posts saying that the music didn't belong on YouTube, and because of what I had done, bootleggers were now going to get the music and make $ from it (which doesn't make sense) and how I didn't give proper credit or how the music was copyrighted and wasn't allowed on there. None of the posts made sense and after arguing my point a bit, I decided to just delete all the posts. That shit doesn't contribute to anyone's enjoyment of the music and it really isn't needed. (I really should do that for every idiotic comment I get on every video, but some are so unintentionally hilarious I can't resist commenting back...)

After this, I logged on to RL to see if anything new was going on and I was greeted by a comment from Phil Osborne which said something the effect of "not as smart-mouthed on here as you are on your YouTube page, are you Ryan?". I quickly learned that it was him and a few others that were behind this hate-campaign on the music I posted. I had seen this before. Other people got blasted by him and some of the other RLers and either stopped coming back or were booted from the site. I didn't do anything wrong and I felt I didn't answer to him or anyone else. Who made him the boss of what I can post?? In fact, it was one of their own that double-crossed me to begin with, and now they have the nerve to come at me and criticize MY actions. I wasn't about to stand for it. I was very quick to defend myself and I did quite well, considering everyone else piled on Phil O.'s side and it was one against about 12. Another gentleman I had never even spoken to demanded I apologize for my actions. I told him that "I would apologize when hell freezes over and monkeys fly out of my ass." Eventually things calmed down, but I was still barred from the site in early December 2008. Whatever.

They have instigated everything at every step. They screwed me first, then sought me out and left me hate mail and spam, then on their own site called me out and threw me under the bus...and they expect me to be nice to them? To give them the time of day and respect?? They must be out of their fuckin' minds. Then just a couple days ago it happens again over at DIME. A few of them show up, acts like 2 year olds, and get all pissy when I tell them to 'get bent'. Quite a typical exchange.

Oh, and back to Jim Cameron...while all this was going on, Jim Cameron didn't say a word...not for at least 3 or 4 weeks. Eventually the truth came out about his involvement and all of a sudden, he wanted to make amends for his actions. In truth, he knew he was in BIG TROUBLE with the rest of RL and wanted to attempt to fix this. He ended up sending me two additional tracks from the T&L sessions (but STILL not the whole disc, like I had innitially requested). I took them and in exchange, I took down Catholic Charm and What's the Matter Baby from YouTube. Also, there was so supposed to be no further discussion of the incident, no badmouthing from either side, and it was all supposed to end. Fair enough.

Obviously, it didn't happen that way though. Sometime in September (edit: October 12, sometimes my mental clock fails me) I received another message at YouTube from Jim, and he basically blasted me again, whining about how he had been "kicked out" of the "inner circle" because of MY actions. He went on and on about how now no one would be willing to trade with him. To that, I basically said I didn't give a rat's ass, and that it was HIS ACTIONS toward me that caused this whole incident, and that now he can feel like the other 99% of fans that aren't able to get the material that does exist. That was the end of my communication with Jim. Meanwhile, veiled criticism of me and some other people continued over at RL and for awhile I just ignored it. I was still willing to not stir the pot even though I graciously accepted less than what I was promised and appeased those over at RL. I had broken my back to please these people...and that still hasn't been enough. I got tired of it, and back up Catholic Charm and What's the Matter Baby went. I figured if they are going to badmouth me, I might as well give them a half-assed reason instead of no reason at all. Besides, they had been heard and even put in torrents prior to me taking them down the first time. They are out there now, so lets keep them out there.

There's one more part to this story that I have to leave out for now. Perhaps someday I can tell it, but the reason I can't is that it's still going on at this very moment. It's regarding the amount of Lizzy that has appeared on DIME in the last month. It's not an accident. I know EXACTLY why it's happening. That's for another day (or maybe year) though.

This is pretty much it. There's a few other minor things but this is really what one needs to know. I hope this makes things more clear for you all on why I have criticized RL. Perhaos if they would leave me alone...I wouldn't have to leave their email address in my channel page... (edit: I have since removed it)

Thanks for reading.

Blacksabfan